This time, I’m gonna be okay.

This time, I’m gonna be okay.

Today’s the day..
Putting in my two weeks..
Scared.
Excited.
Sad.
Fearful.

But oh so ready..
Watch out Nashville, I’m about to take over ;0)

Today’s the day..
Putting in my two weeks..
Scared.
Excited.
Sad.
Fearful.

But oh so ready..
Watch out Nashville, I’m about to take over ;0)

… And so we meet again.

You know the funny thing about happiness and that slight feeling of contentment you start to get when things are going well.. And then you know that feeling where you get shocked by life’s random happenings meant to throw you for a loop??

Wellllll… Lately me and my friend Tiff have been having the BEST afternoon coffee outings. It’s always the same.. First coffee, the on to Quaker(restaurant) to laugh and talk about the intricate details of our magnificent lives according to present and future.

So there we are, talking away when her husband comes out and looks at me and asks… “Do you know a girl named Niketta?”…

Pause : I sure as hell do know a Niketta. She was my best friend in high school. When I say best I mean BEST! Over the years we lost touch and she resented me for this. So we started talking again after I moved to hawaii and she would text me and relay all of my info to my childs father (can we say TRAITOR)… Long story short we Stopped being friends and to hurt me her and my childs father slept together multiple times without protection (slutty.. I think yes).

… Unpause :0)
So I freaked out.
I hysterically cried myself all the way to my car. SURE I pictured what might happen if the moment ever came where I was near or in ER prescence and beat that ass was a definite possibility. But after a tearful talk session with Tiffany.. And then her AND her husband taught me a unique lesson.

You CANNOT hold onto things like that. You can’t let it eat away at your emotions and your soul. People who are cruel and angry enough to hurt you THAT bad are obviously not meant to be in your life. Your better off without them and the best revenge your gonna give is to make yourself better, happier, healthier and stronger. So do you… And fuck the rest.

I forgive them.
Not for them.
But for me.