I have definitely been in a rut lately. I’ve been dating douches, lacking personal connection with people, lazy, angry at the world, and no self esteem…
Then this weekend hit..
I visited my ex (just friends now) and his mom in Georgia and they took good care of me, I went home and saw my mom which was awful at first and then we hashed it out a little and I think that was pretty productive, I saw my Tiffany and Whitman and it was unbelievable. I think they are my friend soul mates and they help my energy every time I see them, and then me and my sister made up and now I’m home.. And I feel like so much happened this weekend.
It feels indescribable when you feel there are no grudges or angers controlling your every thought, and it feels free to be happy for those around you succeeding in life. I’m happy tonight.. And proud of my friends (even if their are only a few) and I’m proud if me. I may not have all the answers.. But I grew this weekend..
…and that makes all the difference ;0)
So I’ve had a rough couple of weeks..
A car accident, long work hours, loss of federal benefits, child support cut off not to
Mention the push back of a court date by 4 months, falling behind in school, gaining weight… The list could go on. But I’m not letting these obstacles push me into a deep, dark, lonely compartment in
My head, instead today I chose to show you my dreams and my goals and my loves… You know what they say..
When the bee stings, when I’m feeling sadddd, I simply remember my favorite things, and then I don’t feeeeel, so baddddd :0)
Week 1: diet change. I am slowly shifting bak to smaller portions earlier in the day focusing on a few whole grains and lean meats as well as Greek yougurt/almond milk and generous amounts of fruits, veggies, and tea, and water.
Week 2: exercise will be incorporated. I will begin vigorously training 2-3 times a week, my lifestyle is already strenuous on my body so I dont want to overdo it.
Week 3: cutting my calories to about 1200 alongside clean eating and exercising…
And from there I just want this to form a habit so I never have to return to being unhealthy.
This journey I’ve decided is for my health and my happiness and my altogether well being. I accept it will be a challenge and I am willing to strive for results :0) here we go..